There are 60 pieces of gum in my purse at any given moment and I know this to be a fact. I have tons of nervous energy that I somehow can’t seem to simmer. So what do I do? I bite my lips, I chew gum, I twirl my hair and I talk. A lot.
But why do I do these things? Well, I’m sure I over-analyze just about anything and everything to the point where I need some type of outlet. And this is where my foot-shaking phenomenons begin.
This anxious energy doesn’t only progress during the day time. Laying in bed, I have the same problem, if not worse. It must take me somewhere between 1-2 hours to actually fall asleep due to the busy bustle of that day running around in my head.
“Why did my professor say that? What will I eat for breakfast? Did I complete my voice log for today?”
I really don’t have to worry about any of these questions because they will all be answered, but I just for whatever reason can’t help it.
The “What If” questions really roll through my head and make every situation look possible, which makes me more and more anxious.
I don’t know how people sit in silence, calm and collectively. I don’t know how people walk .234908 miles per hour and I don’t know how people have the patience to sustain a full conversation over and over again for the 10th time.
I don’t know how people do it and sometimes I wish I did.
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